{"id":7992,"date":"2023-12-07T16:34:23","date_gmt":"2023-12-07T21:34:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/?p=7992"},"modified":"2023-12-08T12:20:07","modified_gmt":"2023-12-08T17:20:07","slug":"precious-loss","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/precious-loss\/","title":{"rendered":"PRECIOUS LOSS"},"content":{"rendered":"
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I have always been like this.<\/p>

I have always known what I know.<\/p>

I have never been better and I have never been worse.<\/p>

I have not developed, I have not learned, I have not forgotten.<\/p>

Not a thing.<\/p>

It has always been here,<\/p>

in me.<\/p>

Always.<\/p>

This is what I realize after one year of jetsetting,<\/em>
speaking broken Spanish,<\/em>
hoping,<\/em>
fighting,<\/em>
wanting;<\/em><\/p>

One year of laying tarot cards,<\/em>
of choosing bach flowers,<\/em>
of sharpening my intuitions,<\/em>
of wrecking my nerves,<\/em>
in helpless whirlpools of stress,<\/em>
of running,<\/em>
making it hard for myself,<\/em>
isolation,<\/em>
contact,<\/em>
aloneness and wanting.<\/em><\/p>

One year of frenzy and fear – and clear and shining guidance from those above,<\/em>
again and again,<\/em>
always at my beck and call,<\/em>
showering me with gifts,<\/em><\/p>

while I bent under the weight I carried.<\/em>
Such weight,<\/em>
Such responsibility.<\/em><\/p>

Such pain, such numbness.<\/em>
Such a fight I have put up.<\/em><\/p>

Afraid to let go, afraid to miss something<\/em>
I finally let go<\/em>
Of the treasure case I was clinging to in the ocean when the ship wrecked.<\/em><\/p>

How high were the costs,<\/em>
how gentle those who stood by me,<\/em>
how cruel those who let me down,<\/em>
how kind of them to let me down.<\/em>
And I can<\/em><\/p>

Love<\/em>
and<\/em>
let go<\/em><\/p>

(Land belongs to no one!)<\/p>

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Rachel Selbach is practicing the art of losing, yet she keeps on wanting. She forgets and she remembers. The only thing worse than not getting what she wants is getting what she wants.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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I have always been like this. I have always known what I know. I have never been better and I have never been worse. I have not developed, I have not learned, I have not forgotten. Not a thing. It has always been here, in me. Always. This is what I realize after one year […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":8004,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[102],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7992","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-guest-blog-no-email"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7992","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7992"}],"version-history":[{"count":16,"href":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7992\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8012,"href":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7992\/revisions\/8012"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/8004"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7992"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7992"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.pathlessyoga.com\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7992"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}